Playlist #1

  • Sanctify – Years & Years
  • Feel It Still – Portugal. The Man
  • Reverie – isaac gracie
  • IDGAF – Dua Lipa
  • Alors Alors – Bigflo & Oli
  • Paramedic! – SOB X RBE
  • Toothpaste Kisses – The Maccabees
  • Comptine d’un autre été, l’après-midi – Yann Tiersen
  • Silence – Marshmello ft Khalid
  • These Days – Rudimental, Jess Glynne, Macklemore
  • Decline – RAYE
  • Strangers – Sigrid
  • Cheetah Tongue – The Wombats
  • Let’s Dance to Joy Division – The Wombats

I have a very eclectic taste in music – some of my favourite tunes are quite dirge-like, yet I also love a lot of bouncy, happy songs, and as well, some are in a language I don’t speak and haven’t spoken for over 3 years 😂 Looking back through the list I feel like a lot of these artists are quite obscure (my 14-year-old-self’s internal wannabe-indie gal would be so proud) but if you haven’t heard of the song/artist on any of them, definitely have a listen! I’m interested – what is your current playlist like? It can’t just be me who has one that goes from eerie atmospheric to indie to dance to pop, surely?!

A little study with me

Hey! I only had one lesson today, and that was period one, so I was able to come home early and do some more of my own studying, and I thought it’d be cool to write it up as a Study with Me – I see a lot of these sorts of videos on YouTube but since writing (at the moment) is more my thing, I decided to just put it on my blog.

So, I had English Language today and that was my first and only lesson. After it had finished, I went to my school’s study centre to do a bit of englang revision (englang = English language) just because we have a test coming up next week, so I thought I’d do some now in case I don’t have time this weekend. I actually had to finish this at home because I underestimated how much content there is in the language and gender topic, I seem to have endless theories to learn!!

When I got home, I put the final touches to the englang revision, ate some lunch and watched a few videos on YouTube, then got straight back into studying. I first finished off an essay I needed to do – a comparison on Frankenstein and The Handmaid’s Tale – for englit, and then I completed a speech I had to write as a mock englang coursework piece.

My next job was to relax for a little while, because that essay had taken it out of me! I felt it was quite an awkward question and my answer was a bit woolly because the only valid points I had all kind of stemmed from each other, so I feel as though I’ve practically written the same point in 3 different paragraphs 😂 hopefully it’ll be ok though!

(Mini shoutout to myself – my instagram is @carascam!)

Next week I have 3 assessments in various subjects, but I’m most apprehensive for geography since it’s so precise and technical, and there’s so much to learn. I decided my time would be spent most wisely revising the Coasts topic of my geography A Level so I did that for a while, and then I just re-read through the englang notes for a second time to make sure I’d fully absorbed them.

I called it a day at that point – my way of gauging when to have breaks is how much my back hurts, because my posture is so bad when I’m concentrating! I just forget to sit up straight so I end up slumping; I decided to go downstairs and watch TV whilst doing some gentle stretches to loosen up. I was going to also put some revision notes onto Quizlet, but as it’s nearly 8 o’clock now and I haven’t done that, I think I’ll give it a miss for today 😉

Let me know if you liked this post and would like to see more similar to it – I’m struggling for ideas again at the moment, and even worse I’m struggling for time to think of ideas!!

One year on.

March 18th 2017. One small, seemingly insignificant day which actually, changed a lot of things.

One year ago yesterday, my friend committed suicide. She lived around the corner from me, and I saw the air ambulance that came for her. At the time, I obviously didn’t know it was for her and I said ‘wow, that’s so cool!’ because it’s not everyday you see a huge helicopter hanging down outside your bedroom window – thank god. Never have I regretted saying something more.

It sounds like such a cliche, but her death really has made me realise how mortal we all are, and how precious every single day is. We need to appreciate life for how beautiful it is, because one action on one day can have such an impact on so many people.

I miss you. The amount of times I’ve seen ‘you’ in places I’m not expecting has been crazy – in Primark, the school toilets, around town. The amount of times I’ve been expecting her to jump out and say this past year has just been a joke is ridiculous too. She was just the sort of person who was always there and always having a laugh. And then, one day, she wasn’t. And it’s so, so hard to get used to.

I was going to write a lot more on this post because I thought in a way it’d be therapeutic, but actually it’s just made me cry more. If you take one thing away though, please let it be this – my friend, a 16 year old seemingly happy girl, killed herself. Please, please be aware of each other, your friends, your family, because under the surface we sometimes have no idea what’s going on.

I hope you’re happier up there. We miss you so much. I’ll never forget our times talking in pigeon to each other, playing the piano together, eating breakfast in Austria together everyday…rest in peace 🌹

The enchanted forest

It was Mother’s Day on Sunday so my family and I took my mum out to the seaside, primarily just for a walk, chips and a slice of gluten free cake – mine was churros flavoured, and delicious 😋 we went to Redcar and whilst there’s not much to do there normally, during the Beast from the East storms a petrified forest from thousands of years ago had been uncovered on part of the beach which is so so cool!!

It was kind of other-worldly, it felt like we were walking on another planet! The lumps in the ground that you can see are actually tree stumps and barks from this forest, and a shipwrecked boat had also been uncovered, although the tide was too far in when we visited so I unfortunately didn’t get to see it.

It was quite a surreal experience if I’m honest – I never imagined I’d stand on top of an ancient woodland! My mum kept saying it was magical and that it was an ‘enchanted forest’, and I actually really like the sound of that, hence the name of this post 😊

life updates

Bonsoir! It feels like a long time since I’ve written anything (it’s been a few days, I guess…) because the last few weeks have just been really weird and disjointed to be honest. So I thought today I’d just basically spill my mind onto my blog – do you ever get the feeling that you have so much stuff to remember or so many things to do that you’re near to bursting?! Because I feel like that at the moment 😂

Ok, where to start?! Recently, I’ve had 5 days off school for various reasons which I think is primarily why my brain is so confused at the moment: I don’t know where I am or where I’m meant to be haha! It’s weird how nothing out of the ordinary happens for ages, then suddenly lots of things come along at once – I haven’t been on a school trip since last September, for example, and now suddenly I have 3 trips in 3 weeks! Last Tuesday, I went on a school trip to Saltaire for geography which was a fun, but dare I say unusual, day – I was told by a lady dressed head-to-toe in Victorian attire that I have ‘luminous urine’ because i have red hair, I counted a lot of pedestrians and I also ate some very nice pizza 😋

The week before that, we were in the grip of ‘the beast from the east’, so we had 2 snow days meaning that I was able to go sledging!! Whoop whoop! And then, we had another snow day last Thursday too – which I wasn’t entirely sure was necessary, since most of the snow had actually melted, or was melting, at 11.30 😐 but anyway! The next day we had a training day so in reality I had a 4-day weekend – not bad, haha!!

Me, attempting to sledge 😅😂

This week I’m also going on another geography trip, this time to the Holderness coast to look at erosional and depositional landforms. The week after THAT, I’m visiting the Newcastle football stadium for an Oxbridge conference with some of the students in my year, which gives us more information on applying to either Oxford or Cambridge as well as detailed insights into various courses, so that’ll be fun and hopefully helpful!

Moving on from school and academia-related topics, the new Years & Years song, Sanctify, came out this week and I. Am. Ob. Sessed. I’ve been waiting so long for this – literally since I went to their Communion tour in 2015 – but their new song was definitely worth the wait. If you haven’t heard it already, I would head right on over to Youtube or Spotify!!

I don’t think I’ve mentioned it on my blog but I saw The Greatest Showman a few weeks ago. I’d really like to get your opinion of it – personally, I didn’t see what all of the hype was about for the film itself, but I LOVE the songs! I also thought it was pretty cool because I linked the story to part of A Streetcar Named Desire – when Blanche talks about a Barnum and Bailey world, she’s referring to the circus, and the main character of The Greatest Showman was PT Barnum. Cool, no??

I’m going to write another post tonight or tomorrow which will be published either tomorrow or the day after all about my recent trip to see a petrified forest which has been uncovered by the storms last week and the delicious cake I had, so until then, have lovely days! ✨✨

The book club: February

Hey hey hey, it’s a new month so it’s a new update on the book front 🙂

I’m pretty sure I said this in January as well but February has not been my month for reading. I’ve managed to strain my eyes and I was suffering a little bit with that for about a week so I’ve been trying to limit the amount of reading (and other close work) I do this month to try and help them recover – which I’m sure you’ll be glad to know has worked!!

I finished Birdsong which was so good and I will happily admit, I cried 😂 I won’t give any spoilers, but I thought the naming of the child was just so sentimental and touching and…yeah, I cried.

I’m currently on To Kill a Mockingbird which I love so far; it’s one of those modern classics that I’ve just never read! I’m also reading Linguistics: A Very Short Introduction which is part of the Oxford Very Short Introduction series – I find it very interesting and engaging (as it’s the subject I want to take at uni probably!) but difficult to read in parts. I think it’s just the amount of information you’re being told and how hard you have to concentrate to fully get your head around some of the concepts, but nevertheless I still love it and if you’re interested in languages I definitely recommend!

I’m sorry this has been another short post but as I say, I’ve been struggling a bit with my eyes recently, but hopefully now that they’re feeling a lot better I’ll be able to read more. Let me know what books you’ve been enjoying recently, and if you have any blog post ideas!